Six

That night, I am unable to sleep. Maybe it's because of the nap I took during the day. But somehow I feel it is something more. I feel disturbed, like a sinister darkness is lurking around my heart. I feel uneasy and I am all alone. My brother is still not home and there is no one else who lives with us.

My mind feels like it doesn't belong to me. The darkness trapping my heart is out to encase my thoughts and few memories as well. Nothing is natural. Urges to scream, cry, and laugh are merging into one mess, leaving me stranded and at a loss.


A mixture of fear and excitement is spurring within me. Why, I do not know. Why excitement of all emotions?

I look out the window into the night sky. The full moon is somewhat shrouded by thin almost transparent clouds. The night is calm but my heart is not.

Then suddenly, as if to match my unrest, I see something like a star appear right near the moon, a little under it, to the left. It glows and for a second I thought something passed through me. I hold my breath and the beating of my heart increased in speed and intensity.

Suddenly, images are flashing in front of my eyes. A weird feeling of nostalgia is coming over me. Snapshots of people and places I feel like I know are flooding through my mind. A girl surrounded by numerous books and other trinkets, a constant struggle between light and dark, a young man with something like darkness swirling in his eyes, a garden of flowers not known to this earth, a raging battle between the powerful and the misunderstood, majestic white rooms that rival heaven itself, a girl like the other flowing in a mixture of black and white, a sunset calmer yet more frightening than any other, a lavender castle-shaped cloud.

Something clicks. I have no knowledge of what is going on, but I can understand. I am unsure, but confident, for only a moment, I am at complete turmoil and peace.

At the peak of everything, the word itself goes black and I am gone from existence itself.