Ten

As the sunlight's drifting farther
and the rest seems just as bleak,
you'll find me nowhere closer
with the limpness in my feet.

I've always been told sad songs would make you feel worse when you're down. Oddly enough, the depression seems to comfort my soul.

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Weeks passed through the school year and just like before, I could feel myself detach from the other kids in my class. Now Alice is the only one who talks to me. Jane talks to anything and Mary doesn't talk at all. During classes, I stare out the window and daydream. The clouds are really nice when the sun's also out.

The four of us have discarded our ice cream outings. We now run to the nearest shops and sip on hot chocolate to maintain our body temperature. I still feel cold no matter what.


Lately I've been having odd dreams again. They usually involve people I think I know, but deffinately have never seen before. It takes place somewhere where I feel afraid to fall from. No one ever says much in them, but the things they do say seem very profound and deep--at least from what I can remember. I always forget the faces and dialogues when I wake up, but they are easily recognizable later on.

I've wondered if I should tell Alice about them, but I feel as though this is something I should keep to myself.

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I've noticed something strange about Daniel. He leaves early in the morning every day and doesn't come home until late at night. I wonder what he does. He had a job, but I don't think he can work for that long. He never tells me anything. Whenever I ask, he always switches the subject. Sometimes I wonder if he's honestly okay.

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Alice tells me that a new kid our age is moving into Harbourtown with his parents and that he will be in our class. She seems excited, like this kid is going to be her new best friend or something. I kind of hope I can get along with whoever this will be, but I disregard it as false hope.


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